THE EQUILIBRIUM: Another Complication in Love

What if you fall in love with someone who doesn't have the capability to feel love? What if the person whom you worship can not feel the way that you feel? Love is a powerful yet an extremely complicated feeling; a feeling that cannot be ignored by any person. But still if you find someone who feels fear over love and the only emotions that could be stirred by you are the ones associated with terror and not with sensuality?
Are you ready to abandon someone whom you love insanely only because that person can not contain the similar emotion for you? Or would you try till the end to trigger the same feelings for you in that person's heart? Would you keep holding on to hope?

Alec in THE EQUILIBRIUM had faced the same complication. He fell for a young, beautiful girl named Sophie the moment he saw her. She awoke some new yet extremely powerful feelings in him which he had never felt before. He wanted to express his love for her but fate had planned some tough tests for him before he could step forward to achieve his dream to marry her.
Sophie's a simple, quiet girl who had been tormented with a dark past. Her soul bore a wound that was impossible to heal. Since the day she'd opened her eyes to this world, she had never slept a sound sleep without the same nightmare that had haunted her forever. Fear had rooted in her mind and soul like a vermin that was hollowing her from inside. The world never felt like a safe haven for her. As she grew up, her fear grew too to take the form of phobia.... Phobia for strangers, particularly men!
Alec tried to reveal his feelings to her, but how could she understand him when his very presence was choking the life out from her? He was nothing more than the haunting shadow that had always tormented her in every possible way. His touch could only make her feverish and miserable. Every time he stepped closer only to face bare loathness and hostility from her side.
 But did this ever pull his determined spirits down? Is it possible for her to live a normal and blissful life with someone who truly loved her and is ready to live a life of abandonment only to keep her protected?
  

THE EQUILIBRIUM: Prologue

“Please don’t ask me to choose, for it would be like making a choice between breathing and heart beating. Both ways I would lose my life!” Sophie pleaded.

I had a strange dream. I found myself walking on a spindly rope tied against two poles at a notable distance. My feet were trying to grip the thin lock of thread coiled together. As I moved further, the rope shook with enough vibrancy to disturb my offset. It was strange, I had never even practiced once in this skillful movement, but my feet were confident in assuring to get me through.

With even a single shake from the meager base my entire body tilted to one side and then swayed to the other. As the movement turned violent, my fists coiled itself much strongly on a long stick that it held firmly in it. But the stick treacherously didn't help much in supporting me. Instead, it was annoyingly distracting as I realized the weight was heavy for me to hold and the pressure it enforced on my arms was disturbing my stabilization.

My concentration was splitting from the rope to the long stick and I was finding hard to maintain the balance. My eyes accessed the cause of the pressure on the stick that held a good amount of weight on both of its ends. I focused on its length at the right side and found Dave holding it and the left end bore Alec as its counterbalance. They both were tied on the extreme ends of the stick that I gripped tightly and relied completely on my judgement of equilibrium to get us all through the large void we were hanging on while my feet trying hard to balance our weight on a thin rope!!!

THE EQUILIBRIUM: Prologue 2

 

“Dave, I think the airlines lost my baggage.” I thought in my mind, slightly panicked.

“No, sweetheart, have patience it’s coming.” Dave smirked finding my panic really funny. The belt moved with all kinds of suitcases and bags of different sizes and colors at the Delhi airport.

“Here it is. See, I told you it won’t go anywhere.”

I dragged the suitcase, pretending to be doing it all alone, but Dave was picking the major weight.

Traveling with my angel was truly an experience. I didn't need to talk aloud and his voice was not audible to any human ear, except me. Aunt Anna had booked two tickets so that the seat next to me could be blocked for him in the airline. It was a relief to see him and hear him forever. The whole way, I held his hand and we talked about a lot of things. My uneasiness of traveling was taken care by his presence only. His warmth kept me comfortable and relaxed. I had never felt this way earlier. It was as if I had finally found my incomplete part.

We walked hand in hand towards the gate where Alec was waiting for me a midst the crowd. His curious eyes found me and he waved desperately. His medium height, around 5’11”, and lean built made him look like a boy. His dark black eyes and dusky skin with jet black hair, was a complete contrast to Dave.

As we came closer, I realized the two most important men in my life were like day and night. On one hand, Dave beamed like the glorious morning sun; and on the other hand, Alec looked innocent like the midnight moon.

Alec ran to reach me and hugged me tightly. As I returned his embrace, I saw Dave pacing a few steps away from us, respecting our privacy. But I grabbed his hand to keep him closer to me. He looked at me confused and I smiled at him.

“Don’t forget, you are the most important part of my life.” I conveyed him in my mind. He smiled like a small child, who had found his love among strangers. Now I knew my decision to never let him go was right.

We headed towards the exit, when Alec started showering me with his questions, “How’s Aunt Anna? Was your visit fruitful? How was Angelston and New Castle?”

I looked at him confused and just murmured, “It was great.” He nodded and went to get the car from the parking. I waited at the exit door.

“New Castle? What’s the story, Dave?” I thought.

“We had to find a way to keep him in the dark.” He answered. “So, Anna told him that you were going to New Castle with her, for her treatment and there would be no phones there, so you would email him time and then.” He grinned.

“But I didn't mail him even once.” I was confused.

“But Claire did.” He smirked. “She’s purely indebted to Anna, for her help to her family. Anna told her to email Alec on your behalf.” He spoke with an obvious look on his face.

“And all the way, I was wondering Alec would be mad at me for not calling him for the past fifteen days.” I thought and then, smiled at him. “You really saved my life from the most dangerous thing- Alec’s anger.”

He laughed. “It’s my duty to protect you, ma’am.”

I smiled, relieved and felt excited for the life waiting for me with completeness and satisfaction. The life truly meaningful and worth living, with my Angel!!!!

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ATTENTION: Another Valentine Question!!!

So here we are again, with another question for this Valentine’s Day. There is this realization in every mind that the matters of heart knows no boundaries, no rules or restrictions. But the most essential issue that hovers in many minds these days is that is love really restricted to one person only? Or can we fall in love more than once and that too at the same time?

Well, what do you have to say about falling in love with two persons simultaneously? Love is definitely not only about attraction or about commitment or intimacy. In fact, it’s the blend of all three! A perfect love relation beholds the faultless balance of passion, intimacy and commitment. It’s a simple science of keeping the ideal blend among these three components in order to benefit from a complete love relation.

But still the question arises that what if your attraction and your intimacy and commitment find their abode in two separate people. How would you choose between these feelings and if you fail to choose, then how you would maintain the equilibrium in your feelings. It sounds selfish but we all know that no one holds a scale to measure the intensity one feels when fallen in love. Its the heart that rules over our mind. So, if its injustice in the minds of people, its actually a fair deal in love!  

We believe that love happens only once and when it happens, you know you have found ‘the one’. And only when you start believing that your life is complete, suddenly you find someone who too is meant to be with you. And you helplessly get drawn to that person in no time. It’s a hard deal to choose then, no doubt, because it’s your survival at stake when it comes to loosing either of them. How do you decide then?

Would you choose between your heart and soul?
 Would you split yourself apart in two and end up incomplete forever?
 Or would you try to make the two ends meet at some point where you could find the equilibrium? 

THE GIFTED ANALOGY; The Journey so far!!!

My extended journey of writing started in January 2012, when I held my pen and didn't know what I was about to write. A thought that brought a character to life and how that character brought with her others and henceforth gave birth to a series of events and finally a 60,000 words worth a novel!

I would not state this voyage to be just some practice in book writing, but I would like to define these past two years as an extensive winding road to my self-discovery. I have learnt a lot during this entire process of book writing as well as the choices I made regarding its future. Initially, I had no idea what would I do with the diary on which I scribbled a fantasy. But then, as the story stepped in the next level, it made me more insightful. As soon as I could figure out the main idea, the climax and the perfect ending… I knew what I wanted to do with it.

Of course, something that takes away a whole year of your life, needs to be brought to life and limelight! How could I really dump it into some secret corner in my study? It had to come out. I typed the manuscript and edited it…once, twice, ten times! More I read it; more changes it went through and finally I found myself some competitive manuscript readers. They volunteered to read it and help me with their precious suggestions. I must owe that to them; they boosted my confidence in my work and encouraged me to move forward. After a tiresome work of editing and re-editing, the book was ready to come out.

But where was I supposed to go? I have no clue about the publishing world; I know no writer, no publisher, absolutely no one! I felt lost and helpless. But that could not keep me down. Come on, we are in the twenty first century! Where no one is there, your computer is your best friend. I looked for the inspirations from whosoever I could find on the internet and believe me, it helped me so far!

I experimentally decided to e publish my book in Amazon.com in May 2013. Eight months of the release of THE GIFTED ANALOGY and 800 readers all over the world and that too from a single outlet! I really had to make myself believe this. As soon as I published my book online, I decided to write its sequel. Frankly, I really could not keep myself away from my characters. It is a life every writer lives simultaneously to the ones they have already. It gives me respite to write, to express, to pour out my feelings and imaginations.

Thus, THE EQUILIBRIUM is on its way and I hope to complete that within this year. My journey as a writer does not end here. This is just the beginning!!   

THE GIFTED SERIES; THE ROAD WE TAKE

Life is based on the choices that we make. If we have to choose between right or wrong, we can easily make the decision. If we choose right, we carry the satisfaction that whatever happens, we are on the right side. And if we choose wrong, we know our chances and the risks it follows, thus preparing us somehow for the worst.

But what if the choice we have to make is between the two right things? The dilemma definitely forces us to review whatever we lose if we choose the other. Therefore, makes our decision far tougher. It does not add anywhere to make us decide what works better for us.

Under the theme of THE GIFTED SERIES, we may face dual opportunities once in our lifetime. Its old news if we say that there is only one person who fits with us… our true mate. What if it’s more than one? Someone who makes you feel the same love like you feel for somebody else as well? Someone who can take you far into some other world and make you realize that this is where you belong, while the other holds you closer to your own world and gives you the perfect Kodak moments each time you are with him/ her.

What could be your choice? A decision to live in your world safely and happily; or to let go of everything you have for the real place where you are supposed to be and could seek a haven of bliss there? 

Whatever we choose, I think it’s the human nature to miss the loss we have made in the deal. But regretting is wasting for sure. If we mourn the loss, we resist the happiness waiting in the present for us. If we continue to regret, what are we gaining out of it? If it’s possible to mend the loss, then waste no time and go for it. If there’s no way to rectification, then there’s no point in regretting. Looking back and wishing that things could be better, is like trying to write on water. It results in nothing and changes nothing.

Thus, whatever road we choose to take would surely lead us to a place. Sometime, we know where and sometime it comes out with a total surprise. This is what life is all about, making mistakes, correcting them, and if we have made the right decision for us, we hit the jackpot! So instead of wasting time in regrets, we must follow our decisions because they are born out from us and they our solely our own responsibility.  

   

What is more important: Success or it's Path?

Quite often we come across many interviews of such celebrities who have been successful in their respective fields. Mostly they are asked the similar question of how they have got through the path of success. The most likely answers are that they had been dreaming to be this since they were young and they always knew what they would be when they grow up. 
I am not denying anything that they say but it always makes me wonder how does a child know what he has to be when he grows? Our interests generally keep changing with our age. P.S. Some special exceptions are always there who are guided so perfectly by their parents or mentors and they follow the track already designed for them by others. Their success rate is 100% mostly. That's basically because attaining expertise in any field at least requires half of your life! So by the day they reach a considerable age, they know where they stand.
But what about people like us who are brought up in the most normal and simple means, without any guiding mentors or any other kind of sign boards? Of course life teaches us the most lessons and with time we learn whats best for us. Life is the best teacher and we know we could fall, get hurt but success comes only to those who get up and walk again!
In my case I never believe in giving up! I tried whatever was in my means and explored every sphere in that field to know what I can do about it, starting with teaching to stepping onto more innovations in the field with corporate training and personality enhancement programs, then child mentoring and finally trying my hand into writing. I sometimes ask myself where this would stop and will I ever find my 'true love' in anything and finally decide to do it for the rest of my life?
The answer is yet to be revealed by destiny, but for the time being, being an author and a blogger has been rewarding and appreciative so far (and so did my jobs!). But if I am asked what would be my strategy to attain success, then my answer is that I am a learner and each sphere has taught me to grow and be better in my field. If this is not my paycheck then, I need to go farther till the satisfaction is what I receive!!