Chapter Seven: Is it betrayal or a long lost allurement??

“Why are you scared of me getting closer to you?” he didn’t wait for my answer and continued asking, “Are you afraid that Alec would come to know about it? Or is it your morals you are afraid to lose?”

I looked at him in utter shock. How could he be so straight forward? He was too courageous to speak his heart to me so effortlessly.

“I-I don’t know.” I spoke trying to soothe my heart beats.

“What if you are not losing anything in it? What if my love for you is as real as the sun?”

I couldn’t understand a single word of whatever he spoke. I thought he believed in it too much.

“Nothing can be as real as my marriage, my commitment.” I revealed. He gazed in my eyes, as if he was watching something beyond the irises. As if he was talking to my soul.

“There are some commitments beyond life itself, beyond body, beyond heart. Those are the commitments of the soul. Sophie. My soul belongs to you.”

Something inside me moved. I so desperately wished to hold him, to comfort him, to love him. His eyes, his face, his heart suddenly seemed mine. I felt as if my existence was indebted to him. I, all of a sudden, didn’t belong to myself any more. It was he who was holding my breaths, making my heart sing for him. I had tears rolling out of my eyes and fell on my cheeks. I closed my eyes. This was not my reality. I had to hold myself together; else my control would slip out of my hands.

How could I forget that far away someone was waiting for me? One mistake could ruin my marriage. My child would be deprived of healthy family relations. I could never be so selfish to surrender myself to temptations and cheat on my husband. Alec would never forgive me. Our relation would be shattered forever.

I looked at him helplessly.

“Sophie, don’t think so much. I love you. I want you to love me. Forget everything else.”

“No way. Stop trying to distract me. You are making things up. Please leave me alone.” The thought of Alec and our baby gave me inner strength to fight the moment off.

Outside, the storm was getting fiercer and louder. I was shivering in fear and due to my inner turmoil.

“Do you really think that by refusing, you can save yourself from the truth of our love?” his voice was getting more determined. “I am not like those who leave accepting a denial. I would follow you wherever you go. You would find me between you and Alec. Your relationship would not remain the same. The truth would find its way to him. You know well enough that Alec would not forgive a betrayal.”

I stood up and backed to the other side. He followed.

“No, you won’t. I would never let you enter my life.” I tried to act bravely. But his eyes were fixed on me, determined.

“As if you have the strength to stop me. Face the truth, Sophie, you love me. And I would go to any extend to save my love.”